Getting over the slump. (OP)

I do not know about anyone else, but for me there is always a point in the semester where I just want to give up. Maybe it is the stress of classes getting to me. However, it never fails that after the first few weeks of classes I tend to slow down. I am tired all the time and just do not feel like doing any work. Fortunately, I know better than to give in to this temptation. Nevertheless, it feels like each time I sit down to do an assignment I am forcing energy to be awakened from the deepest parts of my being. Perhaps, I just need a break. Yes, spring break is just on the horizon taunting me with its promises of rest and relaxation. At the same time, I chide myself for my laziness and procrastination. Life is work indeed. I really feel like I need to pray for more joy in work. I mean, when I think about it I feel really good when I accomplish something I set out to do, but starting the task is really hard. I understand that the Lord created us to work and that after the fall work became difficult, but I really wish I could overcome this negative mind-set towards difficulty. I wish to be joyful instead of discouraged at the thought of working. I am reminded of some videos I had to watch for job training. One of the main themes was to “choose your attitude.” I really think it is possible to do that, though very hard at times.

Sharing about it has made me feel a little better. However, I know I am yet to have my second wind on the matter. I believe the main reason for my slothful attitude is my desire to be finished with college. As a fifth year senior with two more years left I feel somewhat ashamed that I have not been more diligent in my college career. Thus, I feel some regret for past mistakes. However, I refuse to let such self pity keep me down. Indeed, I must get a hold of my thoughts and stay focused. I think I just need to pace myself and not let myself get down.

Honestly, thinking about the reasons behind my foggy perspective. I am seeing that it is more from the amount of work I have to do this semester. This is actually, one of the harder semesters I have had for the past couple of school years. I guess adjusting to the work load is getting to me.

I know the best thing for me is to focus myself on the goodness of the Lord. Whenever I feel disheartened spending sometime in prayer always helps me realize the goodness of the life I have been given. All fear of inadequacy falls away and I know that I can do anything because He is with me. Yeah, I kind of feel like a psalmist right now. Starting off with a gloomy attitude and then focusing on how God is good. It is kind of a joyful thought to be in agreement with those ancient song writers.