"My Evil Plan to Save the World" (Opinion)

I was riding in my car the other day listening to Five Iron Frenzy on my mp3 player, because my stereo doesn't work. The song I was playing was entitled "My Evil Plan to Save the World." While I was singing and jamming out, it occurred to me that the ideas behind the lyrics were an excellent subject on which to blog.

I relate a lot with the reasons behind the writer’s inspiration. Basically, they satire people who think their own personal opinions about the world are the correct ones, and that they alone have the answers to right all wrongs of the world. Before a came to know Christ this was my exact mind set, and even for a while after having known Him. During the time before that I didn’t believe in God, and I thought if God did exist He had messed up horribly. In fact, when I started to recognize the possibility of God I started to talk to Him about how I would correct the things in which He had failed. There were even times that I entertained the idea of defeating God.

I styled myself as a philosopher at the age of thirteen. My whole thought process was rooted in ideas of love. In my contemplations I would always come back to the idea of how everyone, including God, didn’t get what it meant to love one another. Ironically, the way in which I thought about correcting this was not by spreading love in my own actions, but instead I approached it from a political science point-of-view. Though, at the time I wasn’t aware that was what I was doing. I would spend hours daydreaming about creating the perfect policy to which everyone would adhere, and strategies by which it could be implemented. Also, another point of irony occurred during this time in my life. Instead of growing to love the people and world that I was trying to help perfect, I grew to hate everything. Eventually, I came to the point where I believed the only way for everything to be made right was to destroy everything and start fresh. Of course, I would be the one doing the refreshing, because only I had the answer. Thus was my thought process throughout my first part of high school. In the end, I came to a realization of the enormity of what a task it would be to “fix” the world. This caused me to be depressed, I even thought about suicide. I thought, “What’s the point, if I can’t save the world why go on living in this messed up existence? There is no hope for it anyway.” I thank the Lord that I enjoyed reading, watching anime, and playing video games too much to really want to kill myself. (Though, now I don’t do those things much, if at all.)

Honestly, if it were not for Christ changing me and the Holy Spirit teaching me the truth, I do not know what life would be like for me now. I wonder how I would have reconciled myself with what I saw in the world. However, I now know that the only answer to “fix” the world is the love of Christ. Also, I realize the role I play is not as the mastermind, but as a conduit for that love to reach those who do not know the desire the Lord has for them. It is awesome how the Lord has created us to love Him and others. Truly, I have found this to be the fulfillment of existence.